I'm struggling at the moment - hate to admit it but I feel flat and slightly irritated with people - most people actually. What's all that about do you think? I think I'm doing an okay job of balancing work and me time - maybe the 'me time' is a bit one sided toward getting stuff done - you know the cleaning, the washing, the shopping, but I'm still practising my yoga and taking the dog for lovely walks (getting rid of a bit of aggro with that), but still I feel let down and disinterested. I don't like feeling this way. And what I've learned in life is that whining becomes tiring for the listener (sorry folks), and that no matter who is in my life, no-one is going to make me feel better about my life than yours truly.
I went to the Farmer's Market this morning, my favourite time of the week, and brought home lots of delicious fresh produce and beautiful red flowers...nothing.
I've come back from walking Maggie near the lake - restful, quiet and fresh...nothing.
I have a 3 day weekend ahead of me full of possibilities...nothing.
I'm searching for an answer - just don't know where. And I assume I'm making you frustrated with my complaining. You'll let me know won't you?
Sounds to me as if you are marking time, waiting for something or someone to happen. It doesn't work like that. You say you are gregarious, but you are also gorgeous, but, because you are alone, and time is shifting ever faster you are having a strong dose of the 'what ifs' and 'is that all there is?'
ReplyDeleteStop thinking and start feeling-don't analyse everything, just enjoy the 'being alive' and it will all begin to make sense.
But then, what do I know, could be PMT.
Thank you Moanie. What you say makes sense. I don't really know what the cause is for my dissatisfaction but I'm trying to have an attitude adjustment. And I'll try to feel more :)
ReplyDeleteShe's a wise one, that Moannie.
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